I am once again in a river valley shadowland. Sunlight filters in barely; Internet, not at all. Rather than being…
The Unsubscribe Button is a Delusion: Survival & Concession as a Single Woman of a Certain Age
I’ve been contained in a valley of Wi-Fi, 5G, and visible spectrum shadows for five days. I can walk a…
Setting Boundaries. Fighting demons.
Sunday night. Philpott Lake. I am alone in the RV loop. Everyone else has gone home or moved on to…
To Sea: Feet & Hope in the Surf
I feel like I’ve come to life for a moment. Hopefully several moments. I want to work. I want to breathe and accomplish things.
Going where? The Stagnation of Predictability
21 March, 2022 Two years ago today, I was moving into a new house and putting many of my belongings…
Buzzwords: Social Media and Validation
Edit: I wrote and published this on Oct. 2nd but left it password protected while I thought about it. The…
Daily Existential Angst Diary (I’ll let y’all do the acronym)
**TRIGGER WARNING** UNALIVE ATTEMPT DISCUSSED IN BRIEF. In October 2019, I attempted, feebly, to unalive* myself by trying to swim…
Spring Storms and Black Dogs: Joy takes a day off.
DISCLAIMER: I am okay. I am posting this as a glimpse into depression. This is one day. Not every day.…
Autonomy and Isolation: Separating during COVID-19
I’m at the bottom of a well so deep that I can’t see the opening at the top. No light…
Depression and Suicide: Why we can’t say “Why.”
The Void. The Beast. The Black Dog. The Pit. Depression and Suicide are once again prominent in the news cycle.…