Today I fell out of my kayakâintentionally. On this day in 2022, I went for a swim in a lake…
The Depressed Mind: Speaking to Self-Hatred, Suicidal Ideation, and Isolation (Trigger Warning)
I have not been actively suicidal in some time but I have been thinking about the topic a lot. A…
Another Fog Season, Another Town: Denial of Responsibility in Abusive Relationships
Fog softened the land in North Texas this morning. Mornings like this are common down at the Texas coast this…
Letting the Light In Again
I am settled again in a tiny park on a creek far from the sprawling North Platte river of Nebraska.…
Thoughts from a Dark Valley: Lenience as Trauma Response.
In these quiet, internet-free days, I continue to discover things about my past and myself that I have been avoiding.…
Shadowlands: Recognizing Abandonment Trauma
I am once again in a river valley shadowland. Sunlight filters in barely; Internet, not at all. Rather than being…
The Thing: Compartments, Poetry, and Brain Soup
My ex always said he could compartmentalize his thoughts. This allowed him to set aside external stresses and go about…